when you try your best but you don't succeed.

What happens if we never get where we want? If we strive for something we think is possible, when the reality is that it's unobtainable? Do we give up? Do we keep trying even though we're never going to get where we want? Do we stop striving for the unobtainable and settle for mediocrity? 

I'm really struggling with this. I kept on trying. I gave up, I decided you weren't worth it because nothing in your eyes would ever be "right" so I just stopped trying and tried to do what I wanted and not let your opinions bother me. But still, even today, a comment so simple, knocks me off my feet and makes me think that despite the fact I'm never going to be good enough for you, maybe I'll never be good enough for myself. 

Maybe I wont. That's a terrifying thought. So what do you do with that? Do you ignore it and keep going and continue to never get to where we want? Do you hold onto it and not even try? Do you just give up? 

You're meant to love certain people unconditionally. You're meant to support them not make their lives 10x harder. Especially when you say you love them. Are you seeing the me I see? Does that make what I see a reality and everybody else's views skewered? 

I just don't know. I just do not know.